Houston ~ we have a problem

A lot of you know that I went to Houston this week to go to MD Anderson, for a second opinion, and to see a doctor there that has treated my type of cancer with success.  The complexity of my "type" of cancer is one that will follow me throughout my lifetime.  I know that a "cure" isn't possible, but a treatment to fight this is possible.
I met with Dr Michael Furvowitz, an incredible mentor to my Small Cell Cervical Cancer Sisterhood group, and a very knowledgeable doctor in this type of cancer. 

http://faculty.mdanderson.org/Michael_Frumovitz/

The appointment was very promising, I left with a lot of peace that I did the right thing, and I trust God's path and the direction He wants me to follow.  I only want to do what favors God.  He has reminded me in many ways that trusting Him alone will bring me through this battle.  I have found myself in tears rolled up in a fetal position praying for this to STOP! and GO AWAY!  Then I pick myself up and put my amour back on, because I'm asked to battle this, even though I don't understand WHY!!!!????

WHY!!!!???? Do you want me to be a WARRIOR, LORD???!!!!! WHY ME!!!!??????

I have felt weak and worrisome.  I have wanted to give up and let this disease take over.  Don't think I'm as strong as I make myself out to be.  I just know I have to! 

God chooses people for His work and for what He created them to be.  They can choose to do His work, or turn away.  I WILL NOT TURN AWAY!!!!!!

I had a biopsy done in Houston.  Thank you, God for leading me there, to the place you knew I needed to be at this moment. 

My cancer is back.  Two months after it was removed surgically, it has come back.  New tumor, same "area" that was removed.

Those small cells hide and wait to once again make a tumor.

So what, now!!!!???

back to MD ANDERSON

More scans, and tests, and 5 weeks of radiation and chemo.  Jay and I are working out all the plans, but together with my family, it will work. 

(I can do this!!!!  We can do this!!!!)
I WILL DO THIS!!!!!