Since the surgery admission, I have been admitted to the hospital a total of 3 times. My internal organs are trying to heal after the surgery. I've had 2 CT Scans to find out what is going on in there, and thankfully, it's nothing that can't heal!
I've had so many things done to me in the last month, I feel like a puppet. It's just not comfortable or easy - I'm not known for doing anything easy! Ugh! I would like something simpler to come my way, please!!!?????
As I give my body more time to heal, I wonder why in the world I would consider destroying it again with modern medicine that tells me that it's what I should do, and then it's not a cure all or a guaranteed treatment that I will never cross paths with "c" again.
I get side tracked, I do start to question and worry, I even feel afraid. Those feelings we all get about any situation that is out of our hands.
What has always been told to my heart in my quiet time with God, is to listen to ONLY Him. Through my diagnoses and treatments I have listened and felt his presence in all the decisions. I would love the answers written in the sky or by a burning bush, but I'm realistic and know that is not going to happen. I need my heart open and my mind fully aware and educated for this road I'm asked to take.
I ask for your prayer with me.
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