Making sense

I arrived in DFW on Sunday, feeling somewhat confused and very tired.  I went to bed early, thinking I was zapped from the day, but really wasn't feeling good before I got on the plane.  

I woke up feeling fine, but a very quick turn around happened within minutes I was throwing up.  I told my sister to take me to the ER.  This is when I'm not really certain of details.  I was in a small ER room getting fluids, getting an MRI, cat scan, x ray - then sent to a room.

I can't tell you anything about Tuesday.  I know I got to see and hold Kelsey.  Thedra and Alexa checked me out of the hospital, and Thedra got in touch with her inner NASCAR driver and brought us to MD Anderson very fast! Again, I can't tell you much about that evening, other than I wasn't making sense and Jay had arrived and Thedra and Alexa had gone home.  

I woke up this morning understanding what was going on, and what was about to happen.

1) I'm off my clinical trail drugs for who knows how long - but they need to be reevaluated - most side effects have been identified from the caprelsa - including the very high blood pressure fluctuating  

2) I have several brain tumors that are super small, but radiation needs to be done to shrink them/destroy them) 

The cause of my speech and comprehension being a blur) one was bleeding

3) I've already done my simulation and will start at 5 o clock today, I will stay admitted in the hospital to assure I get radiation through the weekend.

4) radiation is 10 days

And I will loose my hair again - so much for having a kiwi head.

5) talking with my clinical trial oncologist tomorrow on options after I finish radiation.

I'm comfortable, I am being taken care of.  I really don't need anything, but prayer.

After loosing minutes, hours, even days this week, I realize how much a body can fight.  My body wants to fight.  By the grace of God I will continue to do what I can to live.

So this is all any of us know.  I will update my blog is there is anything to report.  I

won't be checking my messages on fb, but will have some friends report if there is anything, or if I can't blog.

My nurse is on top of finding me some homeopathic services here while I'm in the hospital. (Massage, etc)

Side note: There will be a new Crüe on Peeples Island doing their best for the David Peeples scholarship - they have all been part of the gang, so you will see familiar faces.

Love to you all