I'm mad at you!
I haven't been to Fort Worth,
I love Fort Worth! I miss it!
I haven't been to a Texas Tech football game,
I love tailgating! I miss it!
I haven't been to a new movie,
To watch a movie, I've got to go to Amarillo,
I haven't been able to go to Amarillo for fun, I go only to deal with you!
I am angry and mad!
I miss little things that I took for granted - like putting my hair in a ponytail when I didn't want to fix it.
I miss flipping my wet hair and wrapping it in a towel after a shower!
I miss a glass of wine tasting good - too good.
In fact, I miss food tasting good - or even sounding good!
I miss having pajamas on for the fun of it, not because getting dressed took a lot of energy.
I miss going places and no one felt bad for me.
I miss just being a face that smiled back at people, and I didn't worry if my wig was crooked.
I miss my patience. I miss being carefree, and not wondering when this will be over, or what I have waiting for me each month.
I hate you cancer!
I love you, and although I wish you were not going through this, I do not feel sorry for you when I look at you. I still see Michelle, the artsy-fartsy, free spirit that thinks outside of the box and finds joy in things most people never notice. You are still that person, perhaps even more so if your wig is a little crooked! :) It's okay to hate cancer, but never doubt who you are!! Love you bunches...
ReplyDeleteMichele Spielman
Love and courage is the picture you are, it is the strength you share to those who are suffering small or large!! you are beautful even if your wig is crooked!!! Hang in there and keep your faith strong and tell cancer off anytime you need to and remember you are never alone!!!
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